WASTED REMEMBRANCE…

WASTED REMINISCE

CHAPTER ONE

        'His eyes where bloodshot, very red and very still, he clung on to the piece of wood for a survival instinct that came into his head in trickles, he could only remember to breathe and be alive…. As he breathed, the “hands above” seems to hold him down, pushing… wanting him to drown…yes! Wanting him to die…. And he was drowning; his fingers touched a metallic substance, almost immediately the taste of raw bile taste of death filled his tongue, his lungs contracted rapidly…He was sure going to die…


        Marcos awoke with a start, the shock of this nightmare was excruciating, he could not fathom the essence of this dream, his stoic manliness was suddenly inept as he went for a cup of hot tea mixed with caffeine, Anyway ‘Dreams’ were figment-derisive representation of thoughts from the mind he recalled the words of his mentor IDI ‘AMIN

          With  renewed sense of vigor and optimism, he took a shower and paced the entire length of his 5ft, 10 inch room, with a coffee mug in hand he decided to go and see Braham Pradesh the renowned crystal ball gazer in Katanga... The all seing eyes from Vahalla...

    “After all, a frog is not seen running in the day for nothing, it is either pursuing something or the other way round” he mused aloud to himself.

        As he approached the revered structure, the learned ‘eyes’ pinnacle near river Tiber and Euphrates, he saw the unexpected.What a travesty of justice! --- His eyes swallowed the entire scene, a bizarre phantom he cried to wake up from as his baby sister was been straddled like a horse, it was so fulfilling and captivating that she did not noticed the entrant of the intruder, her euphoric moans of ecstasy and delight reverberated like an echo…“…oh… aaah…. Soo…oo...ooftly…Mnnnhmm… y...yes! 
        This was too much eyesore, and it was really getting to his nerve, an evil thought crept to the top corner of his mind or was it just a feeling?Almost immediately, he decided to delete the entire scene from his memory, by putting a full stop on the life of the “man” and “horse”.

       ‘This never happened! He said to himself Bringing out his .22 semi-automatic magazine calibers, he aimed at the man’s temple taking a full 360 degree twist-turn; he turned the man’s temple into a bloody pulp of arteries and neurons after a cataclysmic sound…whimper…. from the dying man.She rose almost immediately, flummox, with her breast dangling and the nipples peeking out, like a flat slippers compressed by the soles of a caterpillar vehicle, and with an alarming swiftness that a woman her age cannot possess she made to run to the entrance with the turgid flesh in her hand, But the swift, black and steady hands on the trigger was not mistaken as the movement of pellets from the lethal weapon with sudden alacrity and exactness hit the base of her nipples and created a chasm that made the area look more like a cadaver cut open.A soft cry escaped from her lips as they trembled uncontrollably, she stood still, released the turgid penis she held, then…She screamed!
        But the words never came out, as she fell face down on to the marble floor, convulsed sporadically as if epileptic or possessed by demons in their numbers, she smiled…. and was still.Still…stiff!
        
       Marcos was suddenly alarmed, he has just committed homicide and that alone was coupled with the nausea he felt from seeing the unwholesome tragedy of his sister mutually conjugating with that bastard, the hysterical nightmare of yesterday and the acidic smell of death came to his nostrils, he coughed and spat out, dialed 911 and immediately spoke into the receiver.‘Hello commander!?The voice at the other end was expectant… but Marcos was suddenly dumb, he severed the line and did the best thing he could do… he dug a grave for two, buried them and cried.… For the first time in his goddamn life he cried from the heart!As he sat down with tears-moistened eyes, he slept. Shadows of his past crept once again into the nexus of his mind. He remembered his days in primary five when he was just…mayhem…Madness and Raw Mayhem!!!
    “Back in the class, he was a staunch masochist, though hardworking in physical athleticism and sports yet he loved crime and he naturally had a flair for being malevolent, he is hereby suspended indefinitely”…

         He remembered this statement above as the report of his head teacher in Ambrose Secondary School, Congo to the head chaplain, he hissed and touched his eye, an action he does absentmindedly whenever he was in a fix.‘They never understood me’! He shouted as though he was conversing with a spirit being, he coughed spasmodically, the blood from his epiglottis came to his mouth, he sucked it in and stood up to his torso length, washed the other blood stain away from his Berluscone designer’s denim and burst into the street as a new man with no sin, a complete saint, eyes squared and heads held high, he navigated the shortest route to Braham Pradesh cubicle…
That’s all’ he said to himself,Time will heal all wounds’ he smiled showing his gaping tooth.The sun was beginning to set, the gentle, sea wind caressed his body making him numb… he almost forgot he has done the unthinkable.



                             CHAPTER TWO

          His footsteps was bold and strong which clearly underlines the strength emanating from the young man on the other side, he could see the man through a semi-transparent opening which gives a vivid look of the person outside without the person getting to notice, but Braham Pradesh had seen worse

         …He remembered 1967 during the Arabia war later nicknamed the Biafran war with the khaki men in shorts, the pain and misery his step mother made him pass through which led to the vicious mark on his left eye, he remembered Sandra… little Sandra! His loving sister and how she was defiled in turns by those savages… he remembered the death of his father as he was sacrificed for leading the troop that tethered the creation of the dreaded ‘OBUNUNIGWE’ right at the heart of princess Alexandria hall, Nsukka,

‘The memory lingers’ he spoke to outer space; eyes distant...clueless

      Holding a piece of sacred white cloth and a cowry, he was momentarily gone as the scene played back again… the agonizing sound and profuse tears shed by his father as his two eyes were plucked out neatly till there was no tears again but blood…Dark, red blood!

         At the background was a little tape which plays at interval different kinds of hilarious and hysterical sounds which sent chills down the bones of any visitor, Marcos walked in, the eyes of the guru was distant and his face shone like a million stars, his white sacred cloth was placed directly atop the sacred ball giving him an enhanced feature of Zeus the Corinthian god, he feigned ignorance,He did hear him walk in…Hello?!“Why did you disturb the spirits that sees with both eyes closed?Why did you choose to do that before you came here, your hands are full...Yes! Full of fresh, sizzling blood…hmmnn!”?
         He paused for a brief second as if sizing the after effect of his question and with a rave of thunder in his rumbling voice he roared the word
       Why!!!?
       

       It took all the courage he could project not to take to his heels, but with a calm that surprised even him and a voice that was also a caricature to his big frame he askedWhat did you know Ol’ eyes?Braham released the pulley that increases the audio level of that tape, thunder reverberated, Marcos cowed and shivered for a minute or two. The sound from the tape changed to that of a rushing wind which was like a respite to the sound heard before…‘Go home; do not look left or right! Greet nobody today…they pursue you with all venom, they might kill…kill…kill…kill……
    "Come back with a white dove, two turtle skin and hyenas fats...AND a thousand dollars, I will explain your dreams….


      Marcos could not believe his ears, he had not explained anything to this erudite seer but he already knows his predicament, proffered solution and even seen his evil, he shivered again
‘Thank you s—
Don’t thank me’ he said ‘go home.

   And with a look of victory that a predator countenance chars on the face of the prey he crossed his legs.Dropping the whole amount on him at the base of the sacred ball, he half stood and half ran at the same time, Braham grinned, counted the crisp naira notes on the floor, he stopped the tape player and dropped his sacred white“This is just the beginning to a good plot, my enemy needs‘help’…my ‘help’ he must get”… hahaahaaa!

                                               Chapter three'

       He saw fire and brimstone… the chairman with a three forged fork poked virtually all the occupant in that enclave… the place was evil…black and evil. He screamed as the apex of a neatly sharpened drive penetrated his bronchi oles… fresh tears welled up his eyes as he ran from the chairman. But, he was so fast like a man on a spring another drive sent his spluttering…blood, he cried but the chairman only licked the tip, laughed hysterically ready for another drive, stoo…o…op! Marcos cried.


        With tears in eye, he awoke looking more puzzled and speechless than he looked the night before. He remembered the word of the seer and immediately the words “they pursue you to kill…kill. Kill…kill!!…” resounded like an anthem somewhere in his head, almost immediately he realized the procedures he was to undertake in order to regain his perfect self was daunting as he could not afford the items needed.
       The idea fizzled in like a rushing wind, he thought of stealing? Yes! Stealing to make all things ‘ceteris paribus’. Almost immediately he drifted to another fit of nostalgia, recalling those words of REV. ANTHONY INHERE the hallowed bald preacher…

  Listen to the newborn’s infant cry in the hour of birth then juxtapose it with death struggles in the final hour--- and then say if what begins and ends in this way can be seen as fulfilling… as…enjoyment!

         Marcos could swore he heard the voice of that man as loud as it was many god forsaking years ago, he at this point concur that life is completely meaningless…There is virtually no need to fight this darkness that has tried beyond all odds to overwhelm him, no need to make Braham Pradesh a little richer…. Life is just in one word--- HOSTILE.

      As a good literature student quite promising in this field in his younger days… he recalled the poems of the revered W.B Yeats:I balanced all, brought all to mind,The years to come seemed waste of breath,A waste of breath the years behind In balance with this life, this death.Marcos broke down again in tears, he has been crying much too often this days, what has suddenly happened to the symbolic “rock” of Ambrose college. THE CHAMPION as he was called by all and sundry …oh! “Things are really changing” he reflected pensively What the cause to this womanliness? He pondered aloud; he decided to go back from where he came “a man” after all the words of that preacher was real…“Life is worthless, an everyday cosmic struggle and repetition of a triangular pattern which could lead to monotony and boredom…
           Finally, the candle burns out…”

        He remembered some weeks ago his own self idol left planet earth… he thought about Michael… oh! Poor Michael Jackson! He did it! Why can’t I? He had to prove a point if not at the entrance then at the exit.He took a bath hurriedly, shampooed his rich, dark skin till they shone like glass. with a bravado that surprised his ‘maker’ he picked the sharp thronged fork and plunges it into his carotid artery till they severed like when one kills a chicken…like when a wired connection is forcefully removed… like when you disconnect a ‘patella’ from a kneecap.

HE SLEPT… still remembering what a brave man he was, going into the thick void he could now see, quite elated : he has done something right for the very first time, with his last show of courage and vigor, while the watching world laughs hysterically at his mundane, derisive display of cowardice and shame…..

       A life fizzles out… and then truly...the candle burns out… 
leaving behind a sedated, humid smoke, another soul lost after Michael excesses, how many more to go...